So the girl who was supposed to be my roommate is moving in with the girl in the suite who is a single liver currently because she “is not looking forward to living with my randomly selected roommate (who I just found out about 3 days ago)” and “Me and my friend are both scared of living with two strangers”.
Gurl, I’ve been nothing but cool with whatever crap you’ve thrown at me. the first question you asked me were “Do you drink/party?” and when i gave my answer “no, not really” I promptly reassured you that I did not give a single fuck if you did or not. Also, you were “demanding my respect” before you even got the chance to know me. UGH
I shouldn’t be this mad, but I am.
I am officially taking the plunge. I am moving on, moving out. Up until now everything has seemed so surreal with what I am doing with my life, community college seemed like just another tedious thing I had to accomplish before I got into the real college that would make my dreams “come true”. Looking back I had to do a LOT to get into the position where I am now. I went through two years, five semesters of college, and came out with an associates degree. Now I am three days away from living in a dorm and trying to figure that shit out. While I am not afraid of the experience, I am afraid that I will fail. I will have, hopefully, three more years of college until I am done with what I think I want. That’s a long ass time. And for what? A degree that will help me pursue a job that I hope will make me happy, because being a teacher will certainly not make you rich around here. It’s scary and totally awesome all at once, I just don’t know how I’m supposed to feel or how I’m supposed to react. I didn’t think I’d make it this far, or be doing this well. I have exceeded my expectations for myself, and now I fear that I will set them too high going into this next step in life. I don’t know, I’m nervous. But I was nervous going off to Germanna, and I succeeded there. So, I guess I just have to put on my big girl pants and just kick the shit out of this higher education BS.